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Feeling tired of everything

Sun Jul 26, 2015, 11:07 PM
Debating whether to go back to school again. I researched and reapplied for grants and have a full pell grant if I want to attempt school again. I feel really depressed and am really tired of living with my inlaws. It's been almost 3 years come this March ..my other half without a job for over 3 years. I feel pulled from all sides. I am constantly angry,bitter and overall sad. Yes I am continuing with my face painting business but it's not enough for moving out so I am unsure of what to do now. The depression has gotten worse, my other half has his medical expenses paid and is getting better. I don't care for myself well and have been in constant pain for a good while now and feel as if I shouldn't go to the doctor or get a massage because I don't deserve it. My Dad had surgery and isn't doing that well. I don't have much in the way of relatives or a ton of money to go out and have fun..so I feel pretty alone right now. I feel like dying is the only way out sometimes. I won't hurt myself because I know that won't help but I just feel really burnt out. I thought about taking a small vacation to get away but I am too afraid as a woman in her 20's to go alone. I think I need new experiences so maybe school would help? Last year I couldn't handle school and my business getting so busy ..this year I will have to turn down business so I don't have a mental breakdown.

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  • Mood: Frustrated
  • Listening to: nothing for now
  • Reading: ummm nothing
  • Watching: The haunting hour
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: chicken..cluck cluck...EEEK
  • Drinking: water

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Hi I,m Christina!I love to draw aceo cards and anime in general , but my favorite thing to do is color!!!!^.^I also work as a Professional Face Painter!

Current Residence: In a dark place ..basement .
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Getting back to the size I want!
Favorite genre of music: .jpop..techno...BPM..fast paced anime music
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Favorite style of art: Street fighter mixed with other forms of anime art. Mostly traditional works.
Operating System: a cardboard box powered by violence

Shell of choice: "It's a shell of a town"1234 ..TURTLES!!!
Wallpaper of choice: the one I wrap you in after your lynched
Skin of choice: the type that doesn't crack during the winter
Favourite cartoon character: agatsuma soubi..Kubota..Akame..
Personal Quote: If it's too good to be true run away fast and take the tablecloth with you.
Face painting: I have been face painting professionally for over 2 years now working at Universal studios and Islands of adventure in Orlando,Florida. I was a theme park face painter!
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Feeling tired of everything

Sun Jul 26, 2015, 11:07 PM
Debating whether to go back to school again. I researched and reapplied for grants and have a full pell grant if I want to attempt school again. I feel really depressed and am really tired of living with my inlaws. It's been almost 3 years come this March ..my other half without a job for over 3 years. I feel pulled from all sides. I am constantly angry,bitter and overall sad. Yes I am continuing with my face painting business but it's not enough for moving out so I am unsure of what to do now. The depression has gotten worse, my other half has his medical expenses paid and is getting better. I don't care for myself well and have been in constant pain for a good while now and feel as if I shouldn't go to the doctor or get a massage because I don't deserve it. My Dad had surgery and isn't doing that well. I don't have much in the way of relatives or a ton of money to go out and have fun..so I feel pretty alone right now. I feel like dying is the only way out sometimes. I won't hurt myself because I know that won't help but I just feel really burnt out. I thought about taking a small vacation to get away but I am too afraid as a woman in her 20's to go alone. I think I need new experiences so maybe school would help? Last year I couldn't handle school and my business getting so busy ..this year I will have to turn down business so I don't have a mental breakdown.

Skin by AsylumMutt
  • Mood: Frustrated
  • Listening to: nothing for now
  • Reading: ummm nothing
  • Watching: The haunting hour
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: chicken..cluck cluck...EEEK
  • Drinking: water

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Thx for the fave too on hisami :)
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Hellooo ^_^ Thank you for the fave!
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And a llama for you. :P (Lick) Also, can you throw the llama love my way and give me one too? :) (Smile) I'd surely appreciate it. :D (Big Grin)
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Thank you very much for the llittle llama. ^__^
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Thanks so much for the watch!
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